| Nice… I always wanted my own little journal. Ahh… <drool> Thanks “freckle buddy” for sharing the site.Wow, God is so amazing! Fighting the Mirror After my time spent in the mirror yesterday after work, I was too consumed with the shallow worries of what I would look like to others…“Ah, I give up. I can’t pull this off.” I was on my way to a drama practice of all things. I found myself in a vicious prayer for the whole drive there to push myself out of my state of insecurity. “Lord, you’re my hope. Only in you can I become or accomplish anything.” Over and over again, I cried out “Pour out in me Lord!” As I forced myself to praise and surrender to God, once again, he took the burden of my insufficiency. Gosh, I’m blown away by the transformation. I’m so free, so much myself again. I’m so excited about the opportunities and people God’s been bringing into my life. Thank you Lord! I never thought I’d be enjoying and looking forward to doing a drama, among other things. |
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Haha, yeah! I love xanga! It’s so great! I’m going to promote your site on mine if you don’t mind! 😉 Ah, yes, our insufficencies are vast aren’t they? But how much greater is God’s grace, His greatness truly truly surpasses our weaknesses, and His love fills us with a much greater strength, a strength found only in Christ Jesus!
It’s very different when you compare your own self-awarness with the way you veiw others… you can always exalt others on enormous scales, but when you look at yourself, how insignificant you are, you start to realize that no matter how hard you want to, you can’t come to the point to where you’re comfortable with yourself. But hasn’t Christ called us to greater standards? To forget about ourselves and seek to find fulfillment in Him? Ah, the greatness of the Christian life! How beautiful it would be if others would think like you Adam! To find beauty in faults… ::sigh:: something I need to work on…
Happy I got to engulf you into my xanga world! Haha, you’ll have fun with it! Keep the updates coming! I’ll be reading them! 😉
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Hey! Theresa said to go to your site, so here I am! You know…I completely agree with you, and I’ve never realized this before, but I feel the same way as you about “Still I wonder why I keep shifting back to that old state of mind. Seriously, I don’t care what other people look like at all. On a casual and even on a romantic level, I prefer the comfort and character of other’s imperfections far more than the torment of any kind of physical standard for people to reach. To be different than what’s “perfect” is just so beautiful to me. So why do I push myself so hard to get away from my imperfections? All it does is gives me insecurity when I realize I’ll never be close to perfect.”
That is beautifully put and it’s an awesome point. I’ve also been thinking about when God was calling David or Saul (I forget who) and Samuel was looking at the outside but God was saying that He looks at the heart. And really…if we are trying to be like Him, we will be looking at the heart as well…so it’s all good. 🙂 Sometimes we just get caught up in all the hype of materialism and physical attraction…it’s craziness. And it’s a great foothold for satan. Boo!
Good thing we can still be in the world and not of it!
praise God!!
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HEY HEY HEY!!! got your link from Theresa she said to stop by and say HI or something like that haha so yeah here is some e-props for ya and a RAWK ON!!
Laters
Jolene
You may not know me, I came to CCC once or twice… but I’m a friend of Theresa and she directed me to your site… Good entry… Keep striving for the things of God!
For you formed my inward parts; you wove me in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are your works, and my soul knows it very well. Psalm 139:13-14
What can we say of a God so loving? Lovingly and ever so carefully He etched every detail on our faces… His fingerprints are on our faces… He looked and said His creation was good. Yet why do we as people see what God finds good as something to be altered? Something to be perfected? Can we perfect something which the master of the universe already deems good? No, to worry or complain about our physical appearance is like slapping God in the face, telling Him that what He has made is not good enough for us. Yet it’s so hard. So hard not the conform to the standard society has set. Too well I know the feelings… but instead of focusing on outward appearances I try to focus on the inward qualities… the unperishable beauty of a quiet and gentle spirit which is of great worth in God’s sight… God is always more concerned about matters of the heart than matters of vanity… What a just and loving God we are privileged to serve…
Haha! Yay, Adam has new friends! ^ that lady right there, Connie, she’s my bestest! My accountablitiy and prayer partner, she’s so smart huh! 😉
Well, I have to admit, that was pretty slick Adam. No one has ever tipped me in that manner, haha, I have to admit, you got me on that one! It fell as soon as I opened my truck door, that’s what you intended huh? Haha, 5 points Adam, 5 points!
Sweet site, need I mention how I got here…
I think everybody struggles with this issue, I wonder if it is becuase we all collectively know it should not be. I wonder what a part the fall has taken in our lives. I know God looked upon what he created and called it good, but then 1400 years later he destroyed most of it in a flood. Outside the Holy Spirit dwelling in us it is impossible to dwell on inward qualities we need eyes that can see through us, to Him. We are all masters of pretense and equivocation by nature, until we have His eyes to see with. more later.