I’m floating… flying. I usually seem so lifeless. I see now, the world is in full color, a beauty I rarely choose to behold. “Don’t be a doormat” he said. He was right, but I wasn’t ready to pay the price for freedom. It dosen’t take much opposition make one feel betrayed. I guess if a hand on someone’s back is taken for granted, then removed, it feels as though there’s a knife taking it’s place. I’m struggling with this concept.
If there was any right I though I had, maybe I’d defend it. The thought is that if I stand up for myself, I’m claim to think myself more important that those whom I am standing up agenst. What makes my agenda so important held up agenst that of the dozens of people in my life. Doormatency seems to be the best road.
…don’t be a doormat… I’ve finally made that decision. I’ve found a suprising ammount of spiritual sincerety and wonder in following my own agenda (that is, the agenda placed into my life by Heavenly Father.) Now I feel burdaned by such verses:
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
I guess I really don’t know where to draw the line between pleasing people and being selfish.
“The best thing you can do for anyone is love Jesus.”
“Fix your eyes upon Jesus the Author and Perfector of our faith.” (Hebrews 12:2)
How can you ever please people Adam? Man is never satisfied… look at us Christians, we have the most satisfying pleasure, God, Creator, Lord, Savior anyone could ever need (JESUS!!) yet we find ourselves yearning for something else… there is nothing more we could strive for… just something else… something less satisfying, worldly things that give temorary relief. But to step up and take your role as a man… not allowing yourself to be walked all over (and trust me, if you are being walked over by someone obviously their not your friends… “that he lay down his life for his FRIENDS”) but to focus solely on the One who saved you, and by doing so soaking in His character and allowing Him to enter into you… this is not being a doormat. To step up for faith, to allow nothing and nobody to get in the way of your devotion to our living God… this is not being a doormat. To take your role as the man, the initiator, the protector, the head, and yet humiliating yourself to the servanthood position in the name and character of our Lord… this is not being a doormat.
There is no righteousness you uphold besides the Cross and what Christ has done for you… to stand up for yourself, that’s foolishness, you have nothing worthy to claim, just as the rest of us… we have nothing but what Jesus has done for us, we have absolutley nothing worthy but God dwelling and moving in us. I’m not sure if all this makes sense to you, but I hope it at least helps, get a little outside perspective… I don’t know what exactally is going on (I’ve been soooo out of the loop on everything lately… so much homework!) but I hope that all else is well. See you tomorrow at Crusades Adam. Au Revior!
thanks for your verse! keep writing…..
“If you make yourself into a doormat, people will wipe their feet on you”
Belizean Proverb
It’s seems so easy to lose the awareness of oursleves and let people take us for granted. We are here to love and to serve but not to a point of losing who we are to those around us. I pray you gain wisdom from this experience. God Bless!
Thanks y’all. Comments helped a WHOLE LOT.
peace…. or whatever cool people say.